just stay to be "friend"

i have to tell you my reader bout my lovely persons. do you know? he is my friend since i met him in my mother friends house. he is friendly kinda my father. but no one knows he is so romantic to me and to other people too. i mean, i have been to be something in his heart. i have been to be his lovely person, but now..not anymore. since i know his father is business man in a milk company who has relationship with Australia. his father have a big company in Indonesia so he must go to australia to be the citizen in australia. i still remember in July,2th it was my birthday. he gave me a video song when he in australia. i love michael buble so much, so he record his voice and photo to be a video. i was very happy when he gave it to me. and suddenly he talk to that he love me. monthly i spent the day with him. no one know i have a relationship with him. first i was believe him cause he promise me he never make me disappointed with him. but that's a biggest liar ever. when i use my webcam in yahoo i just found that he sit together with a girl. but i just  turn off my webcam and cry as loud as i can..than we broke up. till now i still regret can believe what he say to me. 2 days after the accident, he call me back and say sorry. he said to "chikaa i'm sorry for what u see two days ago. she is my friend. and i want u back." and i just say"too late to say sorry , cause i cant make it sure that u never do the same to me. and u know? i'm the most stupid girl who belive u're promise to never hurt me and make me disappointed. just stay to be friend..i cant go back and hurt for the second time. bye..dont ever u call me again dude. i called it pain and i felt hurt if u call me again. if u want me to be happy, let me to be alone without you." but a few days ago he text me in yahoo messenger. he buzz me to read his chat. i read it and he ask me how are u my friend i just want to send u a michael buble video concert. the i replay and say "i'm fine..thanks for the video" then he text me and say will u back to me? i'm promise girl i dont wanna hurt  u for the second time. a few years ago i let u to be alone but now i wish u want back to me like the old day before. but i just replay and say sorry just stay to be friend is the best choice dude.. now he is my best friend i'd like to be friend then must pretend and feel hurt with someone who i love.



dear R..